I'm terrified of college. I know that's not something most high schoolers would say, and especially not Academy students, but I'll go ahead and put it out there. I'm afraid because this is what will shape me into a career I'll do (presumably) for the rest of my life. I understand that "there are other chances" and if I don't choose a major that interests me I can "always switch," but with a family that's pressuring me to go into an occupation I don't feel any passion for, I'm not so sure.
What I dread is the "you should have listened to us." If I go with what I want to do and end up failing, I've no doubt my parents would explain that they were right and I should've just followed what they said to me before.
Despite this, I'm excited beyond words to get a taste of independence. What I want in my college experience is to learn how to be my own person. I don't want my parents or anyone else to dictate my life—I want to shape it myself. I want a college environment that makes me proud of my major. I don't care for super fancy ivy leagues (believe me, that dream died a long time ago) but I do want to go to a respectable college that can help me to grow academically and individually. If I can find all of those things in a college, plus some money for tuition, that would be enough.
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